Me and Adam had a sweet tooth, so we stopped by AMPM, and got a couple of handfuls of snack food. When we got to the checkout, I noticed that the guy behind the counter looked pretty stoned. So, I felt comfortable in saying the thought that popped into my head: "Wow, with all this snack food, I almost feel like we should go smoke some pot." Adam laughed, but the guy behind the counter looked uncomfortable, which really surprised me.
As we walked out the door, I noticed a cop car filling up. I turned around to hold the door open for someone that was going out, and got a glipse of a cop uniform checking out. When we got to the car, I asked Adam, "Was she right behind me when I said that?" He said, "Um, no. She was a couple of feet away." I asked, "Close enough to hear?" He said, "Um... I'd say there was a 50/50 chance. I thought that's why you said it!"
Okay, so, I don't know what to do about LIB. Adam's not going, because he had a previous booking somewhere else. I was hoping that Art & Veronica would keep me company, but Veronica doesn't want to go, and Art is uncertian. Then I was thinking that Art could keep me company on the ride up, but aparently he's hoping to go with Eric. Plus there's the whole issue of rolling. I would want to - but I I don't really want to alone. I mean, I know, I wouldn't be alone with all the Okids there. But, unless I happened to find another magical elf girl, I wouldn't have anyone to cuddle with. Plus I don't actually have any, so that would mean hoping I could find some there, then hoping that it's any good.
Plus, I would have no one to run off with. I can imagine two possible scenerios. One is that I go there, and without having A&M there to save me from conversation, the same thing happens that has happened the last couple of times I've gone to events alone - I am forced to talk to people, and end up getting closer to everyone and having a really good time.
The second is that Merlin is spinning his awful awful 80's crap, and I'm surrounded by everyone cheering and shaking their groove thangs, and I feel like I have nothing in common with these people, and why the hell am I there. I want to run off and hide like I always do with A&M, but instead it's just me and I feel totally alone.
I saw Kendall's post requesting a ride, and I decided while I was out getting a bite to eat that I would offer him a ride, and that would be the deciding factor, if he hadn't already gotten one. But by the time I got home, he had already posted to the list saying he'd found one.
Plus... there's the issue of all the negativity going on in the group lately. I was always afraid that if I started really getting closer to the Okids, I would see all of the negative stuff that I was protected from by staying at a distance. Well, it would appear that I was right.
Maybe I'll go to help with the dome, then go home if I'm not happy with the way things are going. Although that is a long fucking drive for building a dome. Bleah.