Not myself
September 22nd, 2003 04:18 am
I have been feeling rather odd lately. Very, not myself. Somewhat mood-swingey. Still always wanting to consume something - munchies, chemicals, whatever. That part began immediately after BM, and Adam's theory is that it is a backlash from the sparce eating we did on the playa. It seemed like a good theory at first. Now though it's been about a zillion years though, and it's still going strong.

It has resulted in me drinking lots of alchohol. I drank last night at the Earthdance afterparty, which was I believe the fourth night in a row. I had fun, don't get me wrong. But the whole thing is really starting to bother me. I have been just going with it, because I didn't feel particurlarly compelled not to. But... I am not enjoying the effect that it is having on me. I seem very different to myself, in subtle ways, and not in ways that I think are good.

*knitts brows*

I don't like it.
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Date:September 22nd, 2003 - 10:59 pm
What you need is to come to Collins Kitchen Raw on Fridays (whenever it starts), and get back to your roots!

You know.. twigs stuck in your teeth.. They do wonders for not just your smile, but for your whole demeanor...

But on a serious note.. perhaps you should try resisting your urges, and let some time go by where you don't give in to any cravings no matter what they are.
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Date:September 23rd, 2003 - 02:16 am
Yeah, that is pretty much what I've been doing. I never feel this way - I do things because I enjoy them, and when I am done, I feel satisfied. If I am no longer enjoying something, I stop. Not this conpulsive desire to consume for the sake of consumption.

So, yeah. No more smoking or drinking for me until this goes away. I should also buy a bunch of fruit so that I can have something to eat that won't make me fat.
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