Ethernight (ethernight) wrote,

Not myself

I have been feeling rather odd lately. Very, not myself. Somewhat mood-swingey. Still always wanting to consume something - munchies, chemicals, whatever. That part began immediately after BM, and Adam's theory is that it is a backlash from the sparce eating we did on the playa. It seemed like a good theory at first. Now though it's been about a zillion years though, and it's still going strong.

It has resulted in me drinking lots of alchohol. I drank last night at the Earthdance afterparty, which was I believe the fourth night in a row. I had fun, don't get me wrong. But the whole thing is really starting to bother me. I have been just going with it, because I didn't feel particurlarly compelled not to. But... I am not enjoying the effect that it is having on me. I seem very different to myself, in subtle ways, and not in ways that I think are good.

*knitts brows*

I don't like it.

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